Moving On: Day 128

Well today seems to have been busy bus quite honestly, it hasn’t.
I woke up early again and just chilled in bed for a bit. I then watched last Monday’s Gotham and then decided to have a shower and get ready.

Once ready, I wrapped up another Xmas present that needed wrapping and sorted my stuff out for London tomorrow.

I then went to town and did some shopping, then had a McDonald’s then made my way to my friends house.
We watched some TV and ate some food but she has been falling asleep so I’ve come to bed quite early.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I went shopping
2) I had a McDonald’s
3) I am staying at my friends

Today’s Score: 3/5

I may or may not write tomorrow. I’m in London and it just depends on if I get time and/or privacy.

Moving On: Day 127

I have been really tired today. I feel extremely exhausted for some reason.

I woke up at around 8:30am and tried to fall back asleep but I couldn’t so I lay in bed playing games and watched last nights hollyoaks. And dossed about on Facebook for a bit.

I then felt hungry so got some snacks and came back up to bed and watched Freaky Friday.

At about 1pm, I took all the rubbish off my bed and went back to sleep for a few hours until about 4:30pm.

I then got myself some more food, came back upstairs and watched Revenge of the Bridesmaids. After that, I drew a couple of things; I drew Christmassy Disney princesses – Ariel and Cinderella which I am going to use as little Christmas tags to put on presents.
Again I’d like to annoyingly point out that I CAN’T DRAW HANDS!!! It really frustrates me because I’ve been online and looked up tutorials and things and I just can’t do hands! 😔

Today, I also spoke with B. She’s having a bit of a tough time lately and we spoke a little and I think/hope I’ve helped a little.

This evening, I went downstairs, had a sandwich and watched X Factor and I’m a Celebrity and now it’s time for bed.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I did some drawing
2) I spoke with B
3) I watched 2 films

Today’s Score: 3/5

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Moving On: Day 126

Today has been emotional in one way but good in another. It was emotional because it has been a year since Coral died and I was filled with a lot of memories and emotions because of that 😢 but as a day in general it hasn’t been to bad; the only sad thing is the anniversary.

Today I got up and caught up with this weeks Hollyoaks. I’m kind of thinking or hoping that Freddie didn’t actually kill Mercedes McQueen and it’s going to be one of those storylines where the body isn’t found and she comes back from the dead either in a few years or soon. I hope so anyway because I love Mercedes.
After watching TV, I went and had a shower and then got myself ready for cheerleading.
cheerleading was good today although I think I have really hurt my back. Because of work, I’ve been unable to stretch as much as I used to do and today during tumbling we were doing handstand – bridge and as I went into the bridge, every bone in my spine just clicked. I fell to the floor in pain. The coach asked what happened and I said it just hurt my back. Her response was to get everyone stretching out their backs by doing bridges on the floor. I didn’t want to seem pathetic so I joined in with everyone else. Now, I’m thinking I should have left the back stuff out because right now I am in so much pain.
We also stunted and I am a base so of course, although there are ways to base and I’m pretty sure I do it it properly, you are still lifting and I don’t think that’s helped my back situation.

At the end of cheer, we do “lift ups” which is where a person points out another for doing something amazing and somebody picked me out and said that I had done well at basing.

I came home and had a Chinese and watched a bit of TV and now it’s bedtime!

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I watched Hollyoaks
2) I listened to music
3) I went cheerleading

Today’s Score: 3/5

Moving on: Day 125

Errrm what to say about today….

I woke up at about 7:30am, fell back asleep until 11:45am.

Then I played on my phone for a bit before going downstairs for food.

I then can upstairs and spoke to a friend on the phone and also spoke to a friend on Skype and then chilled for a little bit.

Me and and my sister also planned a meal for our birthday in January and that’s about that.

I dunno… Today feels rather shit and emotional. Tomorrow will mark 1 year since my friend Coral died and I’m struggling quite a bit today – God knows how I’m actually gonna feel tomorrow.

Today’s 3 positives:
1) I played music
2) I planned my birthday meal
3) I did some drawing

Today’s Score: 1/5

Moving On: Day 124

Ummm today has been a bit….. Meh

Some of it has been good and some of it not so good.
So we got off to work and went to outbound where I’ve come to like working but everybody seemed in a bad mood. I mean one guy seemed really pissed off and he was collecting empty boxes for us to cut, he had about 30 and started chucking them at us!
Then there was this old guy. One my first day, I went to help him because he was busy and shouted at me to say that they were his boxes. He later told me her prefers to work alone. He’s quite happy helping others and since that fist day, we’ve chatted and I find him quite funny. He’s really old and quite fragile looking and tells awful jokes but he’s lovely. So today; well there were no empty cardboard cages and so we were cutting and flattening cardboard and just leaving them on the floor because we had no where to put them. This made the Isles hard to go through if you had trolleys and things and it was also a health and safety issue. Then a few people saw this old guy walk past with a half empty cardboard cage, so I went to him and explained that we had a lot of cardboard over the floor and asked if we could put them in his cage. Then he became so fucking nasty!! At first he said “I got this for me because there are no empty cages” so I said
“I know there aren’t cages. That’s why we have boxes all over the floor and we need to put them somewhere and you’re the only one with somewhere to put them”
He got mad. He shouted at me “well I’ll just go and sit down. THERE’S NO WORK FOR ME!” And he pushed this cage at me.
So I yelled back that I wasn’t stealing his work and that I needed somewhere to put the boxes.
All I was doing was trying to clear the floor space because if a manager had walked past, we would have all been in the shit because of it all being there (despite being nowhere else to put all of these boxes).
It really upsets me when people shout at me, especially when I’ve done nothing wrong. I knew he likes to work alone and I wasn’t doing his work, in fact I was probably giving him something to do since there was nothing for him, as he pointed out.
So after that incident, at the fact that quite a few people seemed in a bad mood, I just felt shit.

After break, me and D got given a different job and that was shit. It was mopping up the area where security are and where the scanners and search areas are. It turns out that people really look down at cleaners. D said that one guy had a bit of tape on his shoe, took it off and threw it at her because she was a cleaner. One way to boost a persons self esteem is to give them a job that people look down on! Ever since that happened to D, I just felt as if I was worthless compared to everyone else.
I’ve never looked at a cleaner and thought “oh look at her/him cleaning and can’t get a proper job” I’ve seen cleaners as these people who clean posh people’s houses and get tons of money. Of course, there are cleaners in every business you go but I’ve always admired them because it’s not a nice job, it’s tough work and sometimes quite vile yet cleaners just get on with it. If it weren’t for cleaners, a lot of places would be unable to open.
Yet, people think cleaners are dumb, worthless people. Like I say, I never thought that those people existed anymore, but today I found out that they do and although it didn’t happen to me, it made me become aware of people and questioning what they think of me.

Me and D got given more tasks to do today that were really tedious. Our supervisor was quite funny today. I’ve always seen her as bossy and horrible but working with her today, I saw a different side to her. One where she felt she was able to joke with me by calling me clumsy and when she said “there are desks there” and me answering “I’ve never seen any there before” she replied “well that’s because you’re short”. So that part of the day was happy. The rest not so much.

Now, I am home. My feet hurt and I am extremely tired.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I finished off arranging things for my trip to London
2) Today was my last day at work for 6 days
3) I slept 7 hours last night and felt good this morning

Today’s score: 2/5

Moving on: Day 123

One month until Christmas!!!!!!

Today hams been another good day at work. We were back where we were yesterday and it was fun.

I’m tired so this is short. Work was good, feet hurt, sore throat and cough but it hasn’t been that bad of a day.

Today’s 3 positives:
1) I ate a chocolate
2) I spoke to a friend
3) I listened to music

Today’s score: 3/5

Moving On: Day 122

Today, work has been okay.

Me and D were told to go to another area to do cardboard boxes. There were people already there but there was plenty of work to do. And these people actually spoke to us!!!!

One guy, M, was overly nice LOL we spent most of the day working and chatting to him and well others from the same department as him basically said he was trying to chat us up.

So today was quite fun but I still felt tired. I had 3 energy drinks and not one of them made me feel better. But I think it’s because I’m not well. I have a horrible cough and sore throat and today there was a point where I was coughing so much that I actually was sick! After being sick, although I knew it was just from coughing, I just felt really poorly.

My feet hurt and I’m now home and tired texting just about everybody!

Today’s 3 positives:
1) I made a new friend – sounds childish but I struggle making friends with people. I’ve always thought that I had to pretend to be somebody I’m not for people to like me – ended up with me getting in trouble
2) I learnt a new game called 21 questions
3) I had a bath

Today’s Score 3/5