Today has been quite an emotional day. I just feel like I’m constantly about to cry.
I woke at around 9ish, and went downstairs where I had the house to myself – the first time in a while because my brother was back at school. I watched some TV and chilled in my onesie.
I received an email to say a job application was successful and to ring to arrange a job interview. My interview is next week. I then got thinking about things.
Because of what I did, C has named me on her blog. If you google my name, her blog comes up. Apparently employers google you just to see if anything comes up. I’m never going to get a job because of her nastiness. No matter how much I’ve changed, how much I am sorry, people aren’t going to see that. People just see the past, and if the past is negative, then you’re fucked.
What’s the point of being around when people are never going to see the good person I am now? Yes, I’m probably just being negative and people are going to tell me things like that won’t happen. But they will. Good things don’t happen to me. What’s the point in even hoping for the good?
Well enough dramatic, emotional crap. My sister has been away a lot at her boyfriends and I’ve hardly seen her. Tomorrow she has the day off work so I am meeting her at Alton Towers and we are going to spend the day there. Hopefully it will cheer me up.
Gonna be hard to find 3 positives about today but here’s what I have:
1) I arranged a job interview
2) I’ve gone a week without a sleeping tablet
3) I made 2 positives
Today’s Score: 1/5