Moving On: Day 37

Another sleepless night and another tired day! I really hate insomnia and I think, if my doctor is back off holiday this week, I might go back and have a little moan.

I spent the morning watching Orange is the new black. It seems to be popular so I thought that I would try it out and see what the fuss is about. I really enjoyed it. I have only watched 3 episodes but so far so good!

It was then lunch time and my sister’s boyfriend had Sunday lunch with us. They then went back to his and I went back upstairs and went on my laptop to speak to my friend.

It’s basically been a typical lazy Sunday. This evening I came downstairs and watched the X Factor and Big Brother and now am watching something called 50 ways to Kill Your Mammy but I’m finding it quite boring and I’m so tired so I might just go to bed and see if I actually sleep tonight.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I watched Orange Is The New Black
2) I spoke to my friend
3) I had a jam donut

Today’s Score: 2/5


Moving On:Day 36

Today has been fun.

I started of being bored but then I got up and made my curry for my aunties 40th birthday BBQ.

We then went to the BBQ and I’m a little drunk now !!

Today,a 3 positives :
1) I made curry
2) I drank
3) I met my sisters boyfriend

Today’s score 4/5

Moving On: Day 35

Hello guys,

So today has been fun and so so so tiring!

I got up and went to an activity day with the peer mentoring thing I do. We did a maze cave and a rope obstacle course. I then went to my fitness class tonight.

The activity morning was amazing! Quite honestly, I’m not an outdoorsy person but this was great. We first did the rope course and that was fun but exhausting! Plus majorly tough for a midget like me to reach the ropes and things that we needed to hold on to. Then, after a brunch thing, we did caving. It wasn’t real caves just something made of wood, but called a ‘maze cave’. It’s great for little people but horrid if you hate tight spaces and the dark which apparently, I realised today, I kinda do. The best part was a slight ball pit it the maze. You slide down a little slide into balls and it’s awesome! The morning kinda killed me off!

But I went into the city after, had a McDonald’s and chilled for a couple of hours before going to my class.

My class was good, we worked really hard and I’m already aching but hey! If you enjoy the workout then why not do it?? Lol

I’m home now and completely shattered. Keep sneezing so am either getting a slight cold or the outdoors stuff has given me slight hay fever although I can’t see how that is still affecting me. I hope, because I’ve had a busy day and I am really tired, that sleep will come easy to me tonight!

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I went to the activity morning
2) I worked well in the team
3) I’ve done a lot of exercise today

Today’s score: 4/5

Moving on: Day 34

Well, I am tired! I had no sleep whatsoever last night even though I was shattered. It got to about 7am and then I fell asleep for a couple of hours.

I woke at around 11.30am, went downstairs to my brother, had something to eat and then made a start on cooking a curry. It’s the first curry I’ve ever made alone without Pikachu or my sister. Well, 2nd but the time before went wrong. This time, I googled a Nigella recipe and kinda followed that but changed it a little. I don’t like spicy food so when the main bit was done, I got some out for myself leaving the rest for my parents and brother, and adding more chillies and spices.

It turned out really nice! Honestly, my dad is fussy whenever I cook, he always moans but today he complimented it and said it was really nice; and he wants me to make it again on Saturday for the BBQ. So I gotta work out how to turn enough for 4 to enough to go around my family (who have no idea of portion control! And if you say make for 12, does that also mean you triple the spices? Or does that just make it hotter? (I’m not a great cook)

I then showered and got ready for gymnastics. Gym was good but quite tiring. Usually we just work on our own thing but today the coach was being coach and getting us to do all sorts. One thing was to jump up onto the horse box (is that what it’s called?) and
I couldn’t do it, I blame my height! I also figured out how scared of heights I am, things just went blurry when I was standing on that thing and being made to jump off. I could only do it twice! Which brings me onto tomorrow. Tomorrow I am going on an activity day with the peer mentoring people I work with – a bonding session for mentors. We are caving and doing a high wire! I am going to be so bad at high wire!!!! Then, in the evening I am going to my fitness class and so if I don’t sleep tomorrow night then I will be dead for the BBQ!

Ps. Loving my new phone!

Today’s 3 positives:
1) I made an amazing chicken curry
2) I went to gymnastics
3) I spoke on the phone to Pikachu

Today’s Score: 4/5


Moving On:Day 33

I think I’m on day 33 but if not, sorry.

I am writing this with my new phone 🙂

Today has been a good day. I got up at around 9.45am and got up and went to town with my brother. I picked up an order for my sister, went McDonald’s and then picked ingredients to make a curry tomorrow.

I then came home, had a shower and then met my friend and had a good afternoon, and came home to my new phone 😀

Today’s 3 positives:
1) I went to town
2) I met my friend
3) I got my new phone

Today’s score: 4/5

Moving On: Day 32

Um well I would like to say today has been better, and if I had wrote this earlier, I would have.

I actually slept last night, without Zopiclone. I went to bed at about 12:30 but didn’t feel tired. I put YouTube on on my phone, and watched (listened to) a sleep and relaxation video. I felt relaxed listening to it, then it ended I had to turn it off and remove my headphones and then get comfortable again. I didn’t think I would sleep, and it did take a little while but I slept and didn’t wake until 10am this morning.

I then did some exercise, not much, some press ups and sit ups and squats but I did something. I went on my laptop and played some games and looked for jobs. Then I thought I’d see if I can upgrade my phone earlier. After everything with C, I had my phone taken off me so had to get a new one. I got this one a 2-year contract and it ends on Jan 11th 2015 but from about 3 weeks of having this phone, I hated it. Phones4U are buying out my contract and I’m getting a new phone tomorrow 😀

Then, things went downhill. I started to randomly feel crap and I still do. I’ve no idea how to cheer up. I have been off antidepressants for about 2 months and lately my mood has been going from happiness to extreme sadness. The depressed moments are awful. I don’t want to live, I want to cut. I am trying so hard not to do either but each time I get these low moods, they seem to get worse. I don’t want to go back on antidepressants, the ones I have tried all gave me awful side effects so I just thought that I would try without. Hopefully this passes.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I exercised
2) I applied for jobs
3) I slept last night

Today’s Score: 3/5

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Moving On: Day 31

Let’s just cut to the chase and get to the, “I’m tired” again. Still no sleep and this is driving me insane!

Today has been quite boring. I got up and nobody was downstairs so I put Friends on and watched that. When my mum dad and brother came back I turned over and began playing games on my phone. My dad then saw a jib he wanted to apply for but he’s a bit of a technophobe and doesn’t “get why everything is online nowadays”. He’s been working at the same place for 9/10 years so doesn’t have a current CV and so I helped him.

I went on my brother’s laptop and it’s so slow!! It drove me insane. Anyways, I did my dad’s CV and applied for the job for him. I then went to clean up the laptop and check for updates. There hadn’t been a software update since January 2012! No wonder it was so slow! 162 updates had to be done and that has taken up about 3-4 hours. Then I realised I didn’t have to sit and watch! #BlondMoment

My brother and parents had a homemade curry but they like it hot and didn’t cook me anything so I just had a plate of chips for my dinner. It’s kinda pissed me off that they’ve made a curry when I was going to do one on Thursday. But I’m still gonna make one so they can just have 2 this week.

I also played FIFA with my brother and I’m just rubbish at it but I’m proud to say I scored 1 goal 🙂 He scored 6 but the point is, I still scored lol.

And that is it for today.

Today’s 3 Positives:
1) I helped my dad with his CV and jib application
2) I played FIFA
3) I completed a level in Candy Crush

Today’s Score: 2/5

Please let me sleep tonight!

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