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Not very well

Hi guys, hope you’re okay. I’m looking for advise please.

Lately, I keep going dizzy and am always tired. Yesterday, I went to see my doctor and she checked my blood pressure. She said my BP is extremely low which is why I am getting dizzy and stuff. I have been given some tablets to raise my blood pressure.

Today at work, I joined in in a trust thing where we closed our eyes and our partner would just poke or lift a part of your body and you moved it. It made me feel sick and dizzy again.

Anyone know of anything I can do to raise my blood pressure and not feel so ill?

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Looking forward to life

The last 18 months have been an emotional rollercoaster; with more downs than ups.

Jan 2013, I got arrested. In 2012, I messaged someone telling lies, saying I had been abused and came up with some horrendous stories. I did this to get someone to talk to me. She had wrote a book about the same happening to her, and I thought if we had something in common, we would become friends, and I’ll have someone to talk to. It worked but she found out. Once I started the lie, I didn’t know how to stop and it became bigger. I went to court and in May 2013, got given my punishment. I received 12 months probation, £145 fine and restraining order against c (the person I wrote to) Since then, C hasn’t let it go and has constantly tried to bring me down. At first it worked, but now I can ignore it. She’s the one with issues now, not me and quite honestly I think her head needs checking! She’s obsessed.

But, as I say, I have moved forward a long way in the last couple of months. I am now volunteering, working with disadvantaged people; people who have also probably been in trouble, are experiencing mental health problems, or just need a friend. With this, I get a qualification and can move on to training as a counsellor. I can’t wait. Experiencing mental health for myself, and getting into trouble myself, I know how tough life can be. I hope I will be good at what I’m about to start, I think I will be.

I met with my new boss, J today for a coffee (well she had tea and I had a coke but still). We chatted a bit, she wanted more info about what I did and I was very honest, it’s the least I can do and well there’s no hiding it because once my DBS (police) check comes through, she’s gonna know anyways.

I can’t wait to start, it will feel like a new beginning to a new and better life for myself.

Also, I’ve received 1000 likes on here, so thank you all for sticking by my side.

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It’s still so crazy that no matter how much I move on in life from C ECT, I still get anxiety.

Today is a Saturday and I have to go town and pick up a few things.
If I had to go in the week, I would go without thinking, but this is a Saturday and I know that town is going to be busy and that’s the first thing making me anxious.

The second is that in C’s attempt to destroy me, she decided to talk to people from the place I used to do cheerleading for, tell lies about me (or rather exaggerate the truth to make it sound worse), resulting in all of them hating me. They train on Saturdays and I’m scared of bumping into any of them in town too.

I’ve not had to go town on a Saturday in a long time. I did it last week, but I was with my friend Pikachu as she came home for the weekend. And even then it was just walking through town to get to the bus stop to go home. And even with P and her mum, I still had a little anxiety, just not as much because I was with people.

And since becoming anxious in public, I’ve got better, I can go town alone on weekdays where there aren’t many people. But today is a Saturday, it’s gonna be busy and I’ve gotta go alone. I’m terrified. And by writing this blog, I’ve kinda procrastinated but now there’s nothing else to write and I’m gonna have to go.

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As y’all know, I do gymnastics. Today, I have been stretching a lot as gym has been off for 3 weeks. These 2 pictures are of the progress I made today. My left leg is very inflexible so I wanted to work it.

It just goes to show hard work pays off!

I’ve cut my head off because I was pulling awful faces lol! And sorry but I have fat legs.

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Life is getting exciting

Life is getting really exciting right now.

I had an interview a couple of weeks ago to become a peer mentor, working with people having a tough time, maybe been in trouble that need guidance and help.

I was really worried. I said what happened with me and C in the application and when I met the woman. She said I would be perfect for the role because I’ve made my own mistakes, gone through my own mental health issues and can relate to these people. I will be limited to working with over 16s, but it’s a first step to becoming a counsellor and working with mental health. I have to wait for a DBS check (police check) which will basically say I can’t work with kids but adults is no problem. Yesterday, we did a day of training, and today I was told I was one of the most vocal which is amazing because I’ve never been one to talk in front of a group. The training was good and today I did my safegaurding training which I got 100% in!

All is good. It’s a voluntary role, but it could lead to paid work. Hopefully my DBS comes through soon and I can get my first person.

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