Last night, I had some decent sleep, but also had a few dreams which were all quite sad.
This morning, I think because of the dreams, I have woke up feeling massively triggered and want to cut. May have said this before but, the urge to cut is like when you hear the ice cream van and want an ice cream. Until the van goes or you give in and get one, all that runs through your mind is “I want an ice cream”.
Right now, it’s either give in and cut, or wait till the feeling goes. But nothing is distracting me right now. 😦
Also, today is my first group counselling session and I’m nervous. I find opening up hard in a 1-1, and find group things terrifying; so this is a real test of nerves. I’m so nervous I wanna cry!