I just can’t deal with today at all. I am missing C a lot today, and my family are just being annoying!
Days like this, with my family, are days I would really seek C’s comfort. When I feel there is no care or love even about, when I feel extremely low and can’t be bothered. I would email C and even speak on the phone. She had a softness in her voice that was loving and caring and it would make me cry. I remember a time I cried down the phone saying “I want my Mum” and the way she comforted me with that was amazing. It was the truth, I wanted my Mum, I wanted a Mum to just love and cuddle me. Why can’t I get that at home? Maybe if I had it, I wouldn’t have even contacted C in the first place, and I wouldn’t be in this trouble now.
It is my Mum’s birthday today, and I bought her a lovely bracelet. I’ve not even had a simple thank you!
I wish someone would tell me this is an April fools joke and my life would be happy again!